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Reflections on 2011:

Did I express love this year, real love? The kind of 
love that doesn’t announce itself in flashy 
circumstances or structured conditions - but an 
authentic, quiet, internal love? The kind of love 
that bubbles to the surface when I gaze at another 
with understanding, a love that places me in their 
shoes, granting freedom from judgment and deepening my 
compassion? A philanthropic love that expresses 
because it simply feels compelled to, because it knows 
there is more than enough and everyone can benefit. If 
not, then I resolve to be and do better in my 
authentic loving. 

Did I forgive this year, really forgive? The kind of 
forgiveness that cracks open my heart, peeling away 
one more layer of righteous indignation, thus allowing 
my soul to breathe? The kind of forgiveness that 
loosens my clinched fists held high at a situation so 
that I don’t enter into the next one with guarded 
mistrust? The kind of forgiveness that comprehends 
there is a difference between understanding a 
behavioral choice and condoning it? If not, then I 
resolve to be and do better in my forgiving. 

Did I stop this year, really stop? The kind of 
stopping that can’t help but make me vulnerable by 
becoming more familiar with who I am without 
distraction, smoke screens, excuses or self-imposed 
numbing? The kind of stopping that turns me, naked, 
towards my feelings, giving them permission to 
express? No right or wrong - a stopping that simply 
lets me hear what I need to hear so that I can live 
more effectively? If not, then I resolve to be and do 
better in allowing myself to stop. 

Did I seek adventure this year, real adventure? The 
kind of adventure that requires me to not only take a 
leap of faith off my cliff of familiarity but actually 
sends me back to get a running start? The kind of 
adventure that shakes the dust off my capable but 
underused wings and gives them an opportunity to catch 
the gorgeous wind of change? The kind of adventure 
that knows there is no outside safety net in this 
physical world, only an internal one? The kind of 
adventure that shouts, “I choose to live fully!” If 
not, then I resolve to be and do better in seeking 
adventure. 

Did I seek wellness this year, real wellness? The 
kind of wellness that requires me to be fully 
conscious of what I put in my body - the kind of 
wellness that requires me to practice what I preach 
when it comes to self-love while understanding that 
the power to dissolve poor habits starts by simply 
choosing to change? Wellness that says, “This is the 
only body you’ve got. Treat me with respect, praise me 
daily and honor me as the holy temple that I am?” If 
not, then I resolve to be and do better in allowing 
wellness in my life. 

Did I play this year, really play? The kind of play 
that gives value to the heavenly activity of fun - 
knowing that fun is sacred, that play is the 
equivalent of work and that during play -renewal and 
relaxation usher in the newest ideas and the clearest 
choices for better manifestations? Did I view play as 
a necessary life function and not a debatable luxury? 
If not, then I resolve to be and do better in my 
relationship to playing. 

Did I set a goal and see it to completion this year, 
really complete it? The kind of completion that lets 
the vibration of satisfaction and confidence in my 
abilities heal any opposing ideas of not being good 
enough? Did I honor my life and its sacred purpose by 
utilizing my time with forward thinking and letting my 
mistakes be motivators not antagonists? Did I dissolve 
my insecurities and procrastination by understanding 
that my untapped genius has but one mode of expression 
and that is through idea, thought, word and action? If 
not, then I resolve to be and do better in setting and 
completing my goals. 

Did I open myself up to learn this year, really learn? 
The kind of learning that entices me to enroll in 
being a student of life with thirst and enthusiasm? 
Did I set an intention for uncovering more of my 
potential, letting divine intellect eat from my plate 
and stepping deeper into the waters of wisdom? Did I 
open a book, take a class, study a language, learn an 
instrument, write a poem, visit another culture? Did 
I learn to surprise and thrill myself with the 
infinite capacity I have to master more than I thought 
I could? If not, then I resolve to be and do better 
on my personal path of learning. 

Did I clean up my relationships this year, really 
clean them up? The kind of cleaning that requires me 
to break open the lock, pull back the curtain, throw 
open the window and start removing the dust of harsh 
words, grudges, false accusations and misguided 
choices that have layered my heart? Did I make amends 
for the fearful ways that disheartened another, for 
neglecting to honor their point of view? With careful 
examination, did I communicate my truth, understanding 
that sometimes all we may be able to do is agree to 
disagree and to do so without judgement or malice? If 
not, then I resolve to be and do better on cleaning up 
my relationships. 

Did I share my good this year, really share? The kind 
of sharing that comes from the pure joy of seeing 
another succeed, not from what I think they can or 
will do for me in return? Did I tithe back to where I 
was spiritually fed, transformed and inspired? Did I 
practice random acts of kindness and give of my time, 
talent, and treasure realizing that my good is a part 
of a never-ending wellspring that cannot run dry - 
whose source is and always will be the infinite 
wellspring of the Divine? Did I commit to walking the 
altruistic path, remembering that every step brings 
healing and enlightenment to the world? If not, then 
I resolve to be and do better in my sharing. 

Did I pray this year, really pray? The kind of prayer 
that is spoken not to God but AS God - prayers that 
affirm rather than beseech, are pregnant with knowing 
rather than bloated with doubt? Did I make my every 
day activities a prayer - realizing that every thought 
I think carries with it the responsibility of 
an effect on the world? Did I remember how truly 
powerful my own prayer actually is and that by simply 
devoting myself to the practice of it, I become the 
change? Did I remember that my prayer takes what I 
seek and introduces it to me, the seeker? If not, 
then I resolve to be and do better with praying. 

Did I do all these things because deep down inside I 
fully understand how precious I am and that these 
activities will help me to see that I am held in the 
light as a perfect idea? Did I remember that I have 
been perfectly conceived and am always held in the 
perfect mind of God as perfect being? Did I know that 
there is nothing that I can ever say, nothing I can 
ever do that will separate me from the love of God? If 
for any reason, I forgot my divinity this year, then I 
resolve to be and do better in my knowing of it, to 
fully understand and embody the truth that it is done 
unto me as I believe. And I believe in the 
power of Good, for me, for you, for all. 

(c) David Ault

  1. rikerjoe said: Beautiful.
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